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My heart bleeds ever since that day. Kita bole mecorak atau mengubah masa depan tapi bukan hari semalam.Luka boleh diubati tapi parut itu akan ada sampai bila2

Buat si dia yg teramat disayangi.Hanya tuhan aja yg tahu sedalam cinta ini. Seumur hidup ini, tak pernah saya mencintai dan menyayangi seorang lelaki sekuat ini. Dan selepas kejadiaan itu, saya berjaya meyimpan semua cinta dan rindu dari dirimu. I dont know how i did it, but i did it! berkali2 telah ku cuba utk lari, tapi kemana  saya tak pasti. Harapan dan hati saya musnah..dari hari itu , saya tidak berani bermimpi lagi kerna mimpi hanya tinggal mimpi. Dan bila tiba masanya , saya akan pergi…..Kerna duniamu bukan miliku

KU pejamkan mata, kau hadir disis.Tenangkan lah hatimu agar bisa ku tersenyum.Pejamkanlah matamu bila kau rindu wajahku.

Bisik mesra darimu bersemai disini. Untuk dikau kasih, ku curah kan cinta suci yang tak mungkin terpadam, akan terus membara.Bahagiakan dirimu tuk membuat ku tersenyum

JANJI KU PADAMU, AKU PASTI DI SISI

SELAMAT TINGGAL

I guess i had make up my mind… If he comes , he comes… if he doesnt then he doesnt….

If his mend for me the yes he is. If he doesnt than too bad.. Guess it was very dumb of me to keep thinking over and over again but it gets no where dont you thing so..? True he is special in my heart but true enuf wat make you think he ever think of you rite…

Why i must wait when he dont care any lesser rite… Is like waiting for the the pigs to fly or for world peace to come..

Why should i fully give my heart to him when i dont even noe if he loves me.. Thats just taking a risk and invinting pain at heart rite

Yes i love him much but that doesnt spell out ”I will wait for you” thats just ridiculous in this world.. Yes i can wait but how much longer… iam i suppose to sacrifies my happiness for a happiness mayb after..

wat i noe, i belief in god, most gracious most powerful, he know wats best for me… HE MIGHT NOT SHOW ME NOW BUT MAYB LATER YA… TAKE CARE…. LOVE YA

MANY THINGS TRIGGERS ME , LIFE, SITUATION, SOCIAL COMMUNITIES AND ALL SORTS OF HUMANS U CAN SEE ON STREETS…No matter how successful or how wide is ur smile, no one knows wat burden do u carry.. Neither me nor them no abt wats inside..We hide our sorrows ,pretending to be strong just to wake up to a brand new day smiling and walking happly…

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Sumtimes i wonder do u love me, if u ask me, i say i do..May love may be one sided, and i dont mind, love can be one sided but relationship cant. But some times i hate you so much.. I tried to move on, but the more i try i always fall…and ended up hurting other… Sometimes i hate the fact that i love you so much for who you are.. I hate the fact that i look upon you and respect you whole heartedly .. … sometimes i dont mind this game, because i understand you, but a girl is always a girl. no mater how strong they are, they always fall silently and that is when i felt so cheated.. and sometimes i lost trust in you and i hate you so much… mungkin terlalu jujur..but if i tink again, who am i to love you and deserve you…i only deserve to love you frm far…this is the only reason why iam still strong…kadang i marah, sampai hati u buat i mcm gini… to me your all i left but sumtimes you make me think i have no one left… ENGKAULAH PENAWAR DAN RACUN, GOD BLESS YOU

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IF WE LOOK ARD, THERE ARE MANY OTHER WHO SUFFERS MORE THAN YOU, LIKE THE OTHER DAY IN MY MRT, THIS GUY, HE LOOKS LIKE A GIRL WITH SUME IQ SICKNESS… AND WHEN HE WALKS PPL WILL LOOK AT HIM, I GUESS HE’S USED TO IT,. I FELT SAD FOR HIM, AND I GUESS ONLY GOD UNDERSTAND HOW HE FEELS…. AND ONLY GOD KNOWS THE REASON WHY HE CREATE SUCH PERSON… i was wrong to observe him. and when i look at his face, i cried….. i wish i would take over him for just one day… he deserve to be like everyone… God bless him, he might not be perfect physically, but he might be a perfect person at heart….

Life can be unfair at times. You must maintain faith and never let go,especially during dificult times that u must life ur life to its fullest potential. Those are the the times to triump over circumstances with hope and corage. Life isnt always easy, but if u keep going n pesevere to the best of ur ability, u willgain strenght to mange the new challenge ahead. Always belief that there are bright n wonderful days ahead for u n u will find them… , i love you too

CRAP!

THIS IS LIFE, WAT CAN I SAY… WORST! IT HURTS THE MOST WHEN IT CAME FRM SUMONE SO CLOSE…

DONT BLAME ME FOR NOT FORGETTING… BOTH OF U HURT ME WITH UR WORDS…

THIS IS THE REASON WHY I STILL CRY…. I KEEP EVERYTHINK TO MYSELF… I CANT TRUST ANYONE …

SUMONE I LOVE SO MUCH, I CARE AND I STILL DO, THIS IS LIFE….

Guess i prefer being alone…

How much can ur guy do for you? How much do he even care? Is all just cheap words… in the end ur still alone

How much can a friend say sorry being very sincere and try to change tings? Again, its just a second of realisation… A sec of guilt , a second of thoughfullness…Thank god at least is a sec…

so now wat? Ur guy say that ur self centered and ask u to change? Change? when he cant even reply a simple msg… when he is only there when i show attitude… U ask for it boy!

And wat? ur Used to be darling say girl you change…. Yes ive change to tink abt myself better than anyone else…Wat bout you, u change too… keep on looking for me only to benefit me when ur freaking bored or u need question…I must say i miss you too much, There are many couples of time i wana be with u, but i develop a huge ego, if u dont need me, i dont tink i should be in ur life…. and now u say that i can come to u if i have probs. thanks for ur tHoughts, but for fraeking 5 mth, do u care… i keep distance frm you … for that 5 freaking month, its enuf to bleed my hard, because i miss you too  much and and love you still…

And you, i have no expectation frm the day u say that to me…. why ! why! why! ur anger destroy me? why must ur word be abusive toward my heart…but do u even care, no u dont… u tought time will heal, iAM TELLLING YOU, TIME WILL  NEVER HEAL THIS HEART…THOU I LOVE U MUCH STILL, I CLOSE MY HEART, I KNOW THERE ARE MANY GALS OUT THERE UR DYING TO DATE….

gOD BLESS 3 OF YOU, I CANT BE BOTHER OK… LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME… I DONT CARE…WATS NEW, IF U CAN LEAVE ME BEFORE, U CAN ALWAYS DO ANYTIME … mY EXPECTATION IN U GUYS 0 ZERO!

Sumtimes in life there is just a moment when u cant help it but to look back at the pass… Well again pass will catch up with us…

I meet him last fri, and mon and again today..

Sadly today we went to the place that we actually last meet during a huge fight….. Deep in me i miss him so much… all thoes times we had..the talk the laughter…. but every single bond we had just wasted because of a misunderstanding…

look myself into the mirror… i noe i lost hope…. and i look at him, how he eats and talk to me, i cry inside… This is the guy that i love deeply, but sadly he broke my heart…

Tuhan saja yang tahu how i feel, how much i love, how broken i am…. This guy doesnt noe how i feel, and i dont need him to noe how i feel…i noe i can always manage..

how wonderful is love… it hurts but theres a room of endurance… i dont noe where i get the strenght and the paitents for all this…..

God, make me strong…

Love ros

HATI INI MASIH ADA SATU,TAK TERGANTI CINTA INI WALAU BAGAIMANAPUN KAU GURIS HATI INI.

PERCAYALAH, AKU HANYA INI JADI YG TERBAIK YG PERNAH BERTAHTA DLM HATIMU.aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu,dan sesuatu yg kau sentisa rindu…  Setiap saat nafasku memujamu tapi apakan daya ………………………………………………………………………………………………….

Diri ini terlalu ingin kau selalu ada…. Namun aku hanya mereka sebuah mimpi yang indah dan satu harapan yg tentunya sudah musnah..

Andai dapat ku berteriak tangisan dalam hati ini, tapi dapatkah kau mendengarku sayang, adakan kau peduli ?

Kasihku diracun dengan kata2 mu. Dulu pernah kau katakan sayang, hanya lagu riang ingin kau dengar dariku , tapi sayang, lupakan saja .. Kini kau biarkan saja diriku menanggung sepi dengan irama dukaku yang tak bermakna bagimu.. Di dalam hidupmu, ada tiada ku tidak memberi kesan , hanya aku yang menangung rindu…………….

I’m sorry  if i could get myself to fall for you now.Havent i told you not to fall for me or expect any return..

I appreaciate how much u had this feeling for me and u care for me indirectly but there is sumthing that stops me frm even thinking seeing us together as a couple..

Izit me that is too comfortable with wat i used to be or izit just u who i did not have any feeling for…

Honestly the feeling i had for u is just friendship and nothing more nothing less.Love is a strong word for me to used I cant get myself to love you and i cant force myself or otherwise i’ll be trap again.Futhermore my heart hasnt heal …. I dont want you to be my rebound and when one day u question me why do i love you, i cant even ans..why? because it happen to be rebound relationship and i love you blindly…

i want to love sumobody because there is a beautiful reason behind it and not otherwise.

I was about to fall to the same dumb trap and love you blindly, rebound. You was lucky that i realise or otherwise it willl be a one way love.i love rebound cause how wonderful it is to have someone there but i also hate rebound cause i normally lack of communication interest.Exactly like how  the word rebound means, u dont love that person but u dont noe why u are with that person when ur heart is with someone else

That is the reason i make a big fuss hen it comes to feelings… yes u r hurt, iam sorry… But i rather hurt you now then later.I dont wana cheat ur feelings. i dont wana lose youlike how i lose the both of them.

i forgivebut i cant get over it…and i dont wana take the risk to lose you but if you wana go because u cant take the pain of me not loving you, then i respect.. at least i dont play wih ur feelings………………………………………….